Wait and See

End of the Year...

The baby will be here soon. I think I'm getting more excited by the day as the anticipation of what we are going to have is building. Most people want us to have a boy and I can honestly say I'll be really happy with whatever we have. 58% of me hopes for a girl because I think it'll be easier for the long-term. We already have girl clothes, girl rooms and understand the girl responsibilities around here. If we have a boy, it might be like having the 1st one all over again and just leave us really confused.

The baby pushed us to meet our end of the year goals faster for Farmers. I think we have 90% of the job done to qualify for Championship. Last year at this point, we were probably about 65% of the way done. So I think we are ahead of schedule with some stuff to clean house with next week as we put a finish to the year. The baby has probably helped those goals.

The new baby has done lots of things for our family. It also means a long break from the worship team. I'm honestly not really excited about a long-term break and feel we had a lot of energy and momentum. For the family, this will probably be a good thing. This is my chance to sit back and let others lead and see what God will do. Wait and See...

I think work has caused a lot of stress for me between September and October. I took on some new policies with 2 other agents retiring and always go through the period of trying to salvage everything we can and still wondering what will be left in the end. The service work is challenging as I really expect 110% perfection and when I get stressed, I know staff does as well. With all the changes with work, the new baby, the end of the year goals, and another big challenge that we have been dealing with since April and hoping for closure... I'd say this was the most difficult 60 days I went through since my time in the Army. Things should really calm down in the work-place assuming that we don't have any huge problems as we close out the year. We have made it through the trials... I'm at a wait and see approach to see if the calm to the storm happens.

We've been attending The Stirring for the past 2 weeks for church in the evening. I've always wanted to check it out and get a fresh look at music and watch the how other worship teams lead others. I wanted to see the culture of other congregations. How does technology work at a church in driving people to connect with God. My fear is that I can get in a routine of being stagnent and used to routine. I feel refreshed and learned so much in the past few weeks about our marriage by the teachings. It has been great for the kids as they get 2 solid hours of Kids Church in the evening while Mom and Dad get a chance to connect with God. We used to attend evening services growing up, maybe we have found something spiritually that can help us get away from routine as we are searching for God.

I'm not really sure what the future holds for us, but I feel I'm at a place as I feel relaxed as we close out the year. I have the wait and see approach as 2010 is still the unknown as I'm not sure what it looks like yet. It is a 5,000 piece puzzle that is still being put together... but soon we might see the picture soon.

Maybe some things are "wait and see" but other things.... we have started to see.